Monthly Archives: June 2012

Women are considered deep as no one can discover the bottom of them, and no woman is truly shallow as what deepens her is simply unknown.

Her trials lead her to a new found calling, one that her and her Upmost High Father agree on, that is the road we all attempt to get back on. With every ounce of confidence and beauty we still guard ourselves from the dangers we’ve come to know. We learn ourselves through the years and come to understand what’s good for us as well as what breaks us apart. We know that the heart and the mind are not one in the same but we do try to agree on the things that satisfy both components. Women are considered deep as no one can discover the bottom of them, and no woman is truly shallow as what deepens her is simply unknown.  I’ve never met a woman that was simple minded, only women that couldn’t find the words to express themselves and the meaning behind empty statement that left others thinking she didn’t comprehend the world surrounding her.

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“As I write it makes me crave more of who I am, more of who she is, and more of who you are.”

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If we could all just understand the beauty we withhold and the courage we keep so hidden. We could be so amazing if we just gave ourselves the chance. With passions, careers, family, friendships, and the ultimate treasure, love, we should always keep pushing for the purpose, for the story that’s worth telling. Our journeys and tales are not so much about recognition or even fortune, we don’t wish so much to be envied but more to be understood. If every heart could comprehend one another and truly know the intentions we carry, I think that love wouldn’t be so hard to hold onto, that is if we truly understood it. And with love, it’s never been hard to find; just difficult to trust, confusing to decipher and sometimes a conflict to keep believing in. But it is worth the worry and it is worthy of the tears, even with the people set aside, the story itself is undeniably captivating. It catches every character that becomes apart of it and somehow it gives us the faith to believe in it, all over again. It’s that one cycle that builds itself back up and starts all over again. We’ve all believed in it, fought for it, we’ve turned away from it, only to find it again in another form. If love is something you don’t believe in, that’s understandable considering the mystery behind your untold story, but search to figure out why you don’t trust it. I can recall several times when I thought love was a mission I would no longer attempt, even a myth when I was backed into certain corners of life. But with time our mind changes and we outgrow our doubts in that black magic we call love. It’s beautiful, we should cherish the experience, I can’t imagine a life without those legends to tell.

even with the people set aside, the story itself is undeniably captivating.

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The Essence of Her Strength

After every trial we face the facts, like everybody you love aint gonna stick around. And even the ones you let in may find themselves stepping out. We’re all human, different mistakes all end in the same apologies. Fellas say ‘Baby I’m sorry’, and females sit back and say ‘Nigga Please’. Some women never really pack their bags, other’s will leave him and never look back. Other situations leave everybody but her in doubt; because eventually the time comes in which if only one heart’s in it then she’ll take herself out. Even if there are no answers in response, following her heart is what she’s all about. Even if it hurts the one she loves, she does what’s best for her because deep down she puts herself first. We get our feelings hurt, swallow our pride then listen to the woman inside. She says, “Girl keep ya head up, don’t let a man take your joy or even steal your voice.” So we get back up and try it all again, sometimes without even paying him back for all the shit that he did. We forgive others because we’ll need somebody to forgive us in the end. We keep a smile, because opposites attract and we don’t want a broken hearted girl to shine through the cracks. That is until we crash, one wrong turn can just set us off track, put us right back to a place in time that never got patched. But that’s a woman, we move on even though there comes days when we cry about what didn’t last. We got our stories and we got our past, but we move ahead as if to that we’re not attached. Good or bad, happy or sad, we do it all until the end so we can say we gave all we had. She can fall flat on her face, without it being a fall from grace; dust off the tears, learn the lesson and stand tall with no shame. And still, she’ll give all she can, and just when you think she’s been defeated, she’ll do it all again.

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No one can diminish you if you stay true to the roots of who you are.

No man or woman can destroy the pieces of you that have carried you this far, to the very place and mindset that has you reaching for something better.  With  all of the burdens we withstand and the troubling encounters we have that leave us feeling broken, the elements of who we are remains. These are the treasures that God places inside of us. No tribulation, no outcome, no heartache, no failure, friend, no enemy, no man, no woman, no ONE can steal this, it’s forever yours, forever the strength you’ve always had. No man or woman can steal your voice, so don’t allow another person’s doubt or conception of you silence the belief that you have in yourself and the things you want to achieve. There is a beauty inside of us all, for some this has yet to be discovered. Find your elements and the values that make you proud of who you are and where you are going and never stop referring back to that small voice that whispers your hearts deepest desires. These keys remind us of what we call home, our deepest desires that have yet to come to light, who we cherish and exactly what we are put in this Earth to do. We’re all equipped with an inner beauty and voice, don’t burry that in your troubles, allow yourself the freedom and choice to move ahead of where you are and become the best vision of yourself. I truly believe that more than obstacles, a weak and vague mindset will keep you bound underneath your potential. If you can overcome those doubts and fears, than there are no limits to what you can do and just how great you can become. You can prevail past your uncertaninties and downfalls, that is if you believe in yourself and allow faith to carry you through. If your heart reaches an epiphany, allow that to liberate you and guide you to the next big step in your journey. Never give up and never stop remembering the strength that’s always carried you through.

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Know what company is good for you and not good enough for you. Quit letting anything and anybody enter your life.

I love the feeling of being free. You know, when you finally find something that makes you say screw it to all the things that are bothering you or weighing you down. Every now and then we find that type of escape, and its sooo amazing to feel that power over your struggles; the kind that minimizes them and maximizes your spirit. And for a moment you discover the hero in yourself, the one that God secrectly slipped inside of you when you needed it the most. There’s nothing like the strength of a woman, and there’s nothing more beautiful than a young woman or man realizing their strength and taking control over her life.  I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in our lives outside of our solitude-pleasing other people, suiting others needs, meeting other peoples expectations, and on top of that exceeding them, if you like to be over the top… that we lose sight of what makes us as induviduals happy, what makes you proud of you?

There comes a time in your life when you got to be mentally engaged in yourself and do whats best for you and what makes you happy. For me, it means relaxing, and allowing the dreamer of a girl in my head play out her deepest desires in life. It’s like a strong feeling of peace. Other times it means me talking to someone I look up to and care deeply about, you’ll be surprised at how much inspiration you can gain from the conversation of wiser person. Sometimes its something as simple as watching a best friend get older, grow, and become the person they were meant to be. Find that kind of beauty in life, even in another person. You should try it, it makes you proud of the company you keep. This is all about wisdom, and being wise is a CHOICE. Wisdom doesn’t soley come with age, im talking about that deep knowledge that takes an effort and sometimes a struggle in order to find. Overall, I’m saying that getting to know yourself will teach you a lot about the world, things that something as simple as a series of birthdays can’t bring.

And all this violence on CNN has got to stop! Young people, MY people, quit making a fuss and fight over every little dispute. Learn to walk away from drama and live your life above it. All this back and forth shit is STUPID. Don’t yall know that revenge only cheapens what you’ve been through. It’s lame and shows that you’re caught up and a product of messy ways. Just walk away and let God deal with it, or as others would say, let karma finish it out for you. Trust me, it hits your opponent harder than you ever could.

Here’s some tips about getting along in this world. It’s about being the best that you can be and living a respectful life. Respect yourself, and respect those who how you that they respect themselves as well. And everyone needs to realize that repect isn’t given, it’s gained. You can’t walk around looking crazy, always acting like a asshole or unladylike, and being out of line and expect people to recognize the best that’s in you. It just doesn’t happen like that. You want people to respect you? Respect yourself. You want people to think highly of you? Do the things that are worth admiring. Be sweet, be brave, be confident, yet modest, speak up for whatever it is you believe in–regardless if you’re the only one with that opinion. Be kind but stand your ground, take a chance and be a “go getter”; I admire every person that’s achieved their goals in life, success is beautiful. Will everybody appriciate these things in you? No, but the people that are worth it will; the good people in life.

Balance your time and associations. Cherish your friends because you’ll only find a few best ones in life. Spend time with your family while your blessed with that time. If you have a partner in life, love, trust, and embrace them. Allow them to love you more than you have ever felt and make them too feel like they are the most amazing thing in the world. Take a break on this whole ‘tough love’ approach and embrace love for what’s it’s meant for. It’s suppose to be lovey dovey and  intimant, be proud to have that. If that’s your man or woman, don’t be ashamed to be ‘whooped’ over them, you shoud be proud to be the one they chose apart from the rest. You should love them for seeing your worth that other people didn’t appreciate. Quit looking at falling in love as a weakness; the only time it isn’t good is when it isn’t DOING you any good. Love someone worth your time, patience, trust, and admiration. If you’re significant other isn’t measuring up and isn’t right for you, it’s okay, do yourself a favor and let it go and keep it moving. Learn to be happy and successful by yourself and with yourself, trust indepence and a love for life is attractive to everyone.  Lean on your friends, family and lovers when you’re weak, let them know what they mean to you; these are your angels in life, they’re on your side and looking out for your best interest. Let them grow without being afraid of losing them, allow them the space to move far in life, that’s love. Don’t allow petty things to knock these relationships because the devil comes in all shapes and forms to hurt your life and your happiness.

Also, failures are only temporary, don’t let trials that stump you along the way keep you down. If you find that you’re disappointed in yourself for whatever reason, then change what you do not like, improve the parts of yourself that you see need enrichment. This is the act of growing. Sometimes it takes realizing that what you are is not what you planned, and who you are is not who you like. That’s fine, that’s the beginning of taking on a new merge, and you become something greater than you’ve been and sometimes ever were. But quit putting yourselves down, nobody is going to grasp the concept of your essence, the beauty in you if you tell them and yourself that you’re not worth shit. There will be enough people going against you through your struggle, don’t volunteer yourself as an additional opponent. Be on your side, know your worth and believe in yourself.

Think about everything you are, everything people love you for, you’re strengths, the things about you that set you apart from the rest. You’re an amazing person, that is if YOU think so. We’re only worth as much as we think we are. So if you think you’re not worth shit you’re probably not going to get shit. Likewise, if you think you deserve the world your dreams are twenty times more likely to come true, because you’ll make it happen. Be opinionated, and have a voice in what you do. You must know what you consider good and not good for your life. Know what company is good for you and not good enough for you. Quit letting anything and anybody enter your life. You can’t be everybody’s friend, and not everybody is going to like they see in you. In fact some people may love your qualities but decide to hate you for them because they feel they could never measure up to that. It’s sad, but you’ll find that in society this can be a harsh reality.  Be successful, go after whatever your heart desires. In fact, I can’t even focus or hold a solid peace of mind if I feel like I’m not moving forward in life. Some see it as a flaw but honestly I’m grateful because that focus sets me back on track anytime I start to fall off. Know what accomplishments are going to make you proud of the life you live. Set goals and know what’s not going to get you there and know that there’s some things in life that you’re gonna have to sacrifice in order to get to where it is you want to be. You may have to step out of some comfort zones, kick some bad habits, get serious and put the ‘fun life’ on hold for a little bit. You won’t be ready for the whole ’work hard play harder’ lifestyle until you have gotten down the ‘all work and no play’ lifestyle; that’s just how it is. It’s times like these that we realize who we are, we find those attributes about ourselves that favor us, the ones that make us great people. So we know who we are, we hold onto those things and stand by them everyday.  Hold close to that, because when you forget who you are, you forget who you wanted to be. It’s a key to getting far in anything you put your mind to. In conclusion, I truly believe that’s how you make it in the world.

Take Control…

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Accepting Happiness

Some chapters in life just end, the same way you never asked them to begin, and the happiness you find there after seems to be completely by chance. You say a prayer for God to take away the pain, and sometimes he takes away the joy, the sad, the madness, the hurt, the happiness…everything that went with what got you where you are. Sometimes it’s a lover who hurts you just as much as he makes you smile, other times it’s a friend who abandons you just as quick as he or she is there to console you when you cried. However, if God says it’s time to let them go, that’s what happens. The next thing you know you’re left empty handed. When you place those situations in God’s hands you have to be ready to let go, because God just might take away that person or thing entirely, but he’s doing it for your own growth and good. God has a way of giving you hope when you feel you’ve lost everything else. Life can bring you down so low to where you feel there’s no way you could pick yourself up and smile again, and even if you had a reason to, you wouldn’t want to because you’re so bent on the hurt that came your way and stole the best of you. You should accept the happiness, even if the joy seems undeserving. The same way we do nothing to deserve the bad things in life, we don’t always have to be deserving of the good. It’s called grace, and God is most graceful. Unlike people, God doesn’t say you have to deserve joy to receive it. Be grateful, and embrace the moments that come when you need them the most. You don’t always have to fight that smile when it’s trying to shine through. Sometimes you just have to put aside your pity and let yourself be happy.

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As we relaxed beside each other, our bodies against each other in pleasure, he was closer to my thoughts than ever before.

It was one of my dearest days, the days I wait for anxiously knowing he’s about to be in my world, and me in his. The distance didn’t matter a bit once I felt his touch turning my butter tint cashmere skin into pure silk. The days I spent with him made up for every doubt within me, and he took care of those doubts and addressed them as if they were his duty. He was the only one, I didn’t find interest in the guys that complimented me before him and he didn’t go after all the girls that looked tasteful but lacked a clear head. Now here we were with our chosen one, the one we each picked apart from the rest. There was love in the midst of everything we expressed and that feeling carried me to the moment I was soaking in, the desire that bathed me from within. Before he came along, it was always just me and myself, I never needed a hero nor did I reach for one. But he was something like a superman for me, and I held so close to that and truly believed in what he had to offer.  As we relaxed beside each other, our bodies against each other in pleasure, he was closer to my thoughts than ever before. He was near me and our bodies were tempting one another with presence alone. His absence hurt when he was gone but his presence was even more of a catastrophe as it made me want to scream his name in my up-most pleasure. Instead I simply moaned as I rubbed his stomach, talking intuitively to him about the bond we both were wrapped in. Touching me gently on the length of my neck, he calmed my fears as I explained the doubts I had and the emotions that worried me. Slowly in the motion of his  hands yet quickly in my heart he assured me that he was laying beside me with the best intentions. His patience turned me on and set my heart on fire to know the deepest desires of this man. He didn’t rush me to open my body to him, he only loved me more and more as he waited. I wanted him inside of me, and the more nights we spoke, the more I came to realize that his words were true and his intentions were pure. I waited patiently as we laid there, cursing my name for the things I’d never say.

As we relaxed beside each…

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He knows his children well and even instilled in them, the precise levels of courage and vulnerability that it takes to fall to their knees.

There’s no greater love that hugs your sensitivity and caresses your fears with hope and belief that there is more to life than what you’ve seen. There are sweet whispers that stay in our minds through the next complication that stumps us; those very reminisces of counsel are what carries us through. Even with the advice of friends, family and ageless wisdom, the voice of God surpasses it all giving enlightenment that’s so trusting, that it leaves no room for doubt. Without that unconditional love, we’d be defenseless; one would be downright foolish to let others convince them that there is a love that could top that. He was there as hearts were broken, and even stood by when lovers chose appealing lies over the retched truths that He whispered diligently in their ears. He makes situations right even after we stand firm by what’s wrong, and that’s a love that only He can continue to give, without regretting the act of kindness. At the wake of every morning, and the fade to every dim illusion, there’s an ounce of desire for more than what we’ve experienced and there’s a God that can take us there. This love should be remembered most in midst of times that begin with ‘why’. He gave life and showed with passion how to build love. He made it last and grow to be so enduring. God gave examples in history of how to accomplish goals with perseverance and determination, even biblical references for withstanding trials beyond what we will face. He reads our hearts the way we desire lovers to, places people in our lives so we won’t have to travel the seas and search the lands for people that will fit us. Life is full of twisted uncertainties and chaotic rearrangements and it almost never goes in order with all the daydreams that dance in our thoughts with the excellence we imagine. Underneath it all, like a backbone, everyday there seems to be a laugh thrown in somewhere and anytime there’s a need to run, God is patiently waiting for a prayer from the child that He designed in what He sees as perfection. He knows his children well and even instilled in them, the precise levels of courage and vulnerability that it takes to fall to their knees. It’s admirable the way the Lord desires us with such patience. He yearns for that love from His child and is always so delicate with the tender heart that reaches out. That love is so withstanding, and it’s beyond me how a love that suburb can endlessly exist, but that’s all it takes to keep His children coming back for more and that’s enough to see the beauty in it all.

-God Bless

God’s Love

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In the end, there is no one resolution. The heart devotes it’s time and evenings to the mind and together they sum up multiple rationalizations. They show you different ways of viewing the past you have left behind. Some say this is the hearts way of healing itself, others argue that it’s the minds way of compromising to keep the soul’s sanity. Can love really drive one mad? Ask a lover, ask a man or a woman that has fallen beneath themselves and perhaps they will tell you a story, a legend on love that will show you its depths. I wish every ones story could be told, I’d love to hear them all. Every story is so different from the next, I want to know what other lovers have seen, I want to learn from them and see the painted picture that two hearts witnessed. Let’s share

Some say this is the hearts way of healing itself, others argue that it’s the minds way of compromising to keep the soul’s sanity.

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