As Women, We Pray

Show me how to let go of the bags Lord, all those heavy sacks that he left Lord.

Teach me not to look back, see him, and base my self worth.

Remind me that I was beautiful from day one.

And that this mind must always seek the very essence of what a woman should become.

Guide me through learning who I am and loving myself much more. Teach me the keys to unlock every slammed door.

See I could be more than just a bag lady, I know I can do more with what you gave me.

And although he almost destroyed what you planned for me, I know you saw it from the jump and have already it mapped out for me.

See Lord, I believe you allowed the wretched things in order to teach me better ways.

And even though he is my biggest shame.

I pray that I grow to accept and forgive him for who he still is today.

Please listen and hear us as girls, as children, as women, we pray.

*Ladies, be strong minded women, that’s your power and in the midst of a spiritual battle, it’s necessary. Don’t allow disrespect or abuse to weaken your mindset and dissipate the strength you have within. You got this Queen, own it, value yourself and know your worth most in the midst of battle. *

The Blessing Beneath the Dress

He’s my storm, somehow a beautiful one. Though it began too good to be true, and we were caught up in a love bloom, Now some days it’s blue and absolute destruction …but up to this moment, it’s the climax of who I’ve become. My life changed entirely, my hopes have shifted to a whole other side of me.  And all my hopes and dreams have raised to a pedal stool way higher than they were before. Determination intensifies and I carry the fire in my eyes, damning any voice inside that whispers fatal lies. Every now and then the fear starts to rise making me wonder if I desire too much compared to what reality will match for my life. I was on the right track every dream was in tact so I can’t help but to feel a bit set back. So every night I pray for the strength to keep my head held high and look far past any doubt in the sky. Inside of me a miracle is patiently waiting to arrive and I vow to give my life for the purpose of protecting and guiding this new light. A tear drops at the thought of harm coming your way. But I know I can’t hold you so tight that I push you to go astray. I’ve loved you from the very first day and even before it was confirmed I knew something inside of me had changed. I would give anything to hold you right now, just to look into your eyes and know that you’re alright. I wonder what you’ll look like and I try to guess your sound, I’m so anxious for the day that I can bring my self manifested angel baby home and lay her down. Your father loves you more than he can come to express and his high hopes are focused on a babyboy growing beneath this dress. I love that man to a new extent, I’ve been experiencing a love that I can’t quite express. I pray we make it through the stress and with a happy family you’ll be blessed. Babydoll its only 4 months in but just know from now until forever, mommy and daddy will give their life for you and with everyday we give our absolute best. I’ll love you whole heartedly and with any ounce of my soul that’s left. You’re my sweet escape and beloved angel, I’ll wait patiently for the day I can hear your first breath. From now until forever, this woman, your mother, will be eternally blessed.